Yes, I know it's been a little bit since Canadian Thanksgiving happened, but bear with me because this is still...

Yes, I know it's been a little bit since Canadian Thanksgiving happened, but bear with me because this is still relevant. I would like to try and convince you that I personally chose not to celebrate Thanksgiving this year but in all honesty, I wasn't able to afford the fare to go home AND I was not invited anywhere to celebrate in Ottawa this year. But because I didn't do anything, I learned a lot about myself and my surroundings. When I say I did nothing, I meanNOTHING!

I didn't even use the Snapchat filter for thanksgiving and for me that's saying something. 

Not celebrating thanksgiving this year made me realize that I really do LOVE food, especially that pumpkin pie, however, I was able to snag a pie from my friend because she wasn't going to eat it. I noticed that I missed being around my family. Even though I was just at a wedding last month where I saw most of my family, I wasn’t able to spend time with everyone because it’s a wedding and there's lots of socializing and dancing to do. I missed being able to spend the holiday with my mother and her boyfriend and the rest of the family. I also learned that just because you have a lot of friends, doesn’t mean you’re automatically invited to a FRIENDS-giving; I kind of assumed I was going to get invited to one, that but wasn't the case. I didn't prepare myself for that. If I had, it would have saved me from a bit of disappointment. It made me realize that thanksgiving is not something everyone celebrates and it doesn't carry a positive notion about it. I mean I knew this, but I was reminded this year.

Additionally, due to the fact that Canadian thanksgiving falls on American Columbus Day, I noticed how much I sincerely dislike the narrative surrounding it. It also made me realize how important my indigenous friends are to me and how I wouldn’t be the same person without them in my life. In addition to all of that, I also learned that I had much more time to actually work because I didn’t ask for any time off (bless to getting paid time and a half)!  

On top of that, I also noticed I had a lot of extra time on my hands to clean up my apartment, do the chores that have been lacking, get some sleep, and eat semi-healthy. I didn't have to stress about overeating thanksgiving dinner whatsoever this year. By not celebrating thanksgiving this year, it also reminded me of all the important people in my life and it encouraged me to reach out to some people who I have lost touch with over the years. I also saved money because I did not spend it on traveling home and back.

Lastly, I learned that I am oh so particularly thankful for myself more than anything else. I always have my back, even in depressive episodes, I am always there and I can always count on me. The timing of this reminder is nothing but perfect. So if you didn't do anything for thanksgiving this year, do not fret and try to look on the bright side of it. If that doesn't completely change your mind, then host your own friends-giving and invite who you appreciate!