CityinThree

I’ve been a bad feminist since the very beginning. I’m not talking about being a badass who does what she...

I’ve been a bad feminist since the very beginning. I’m not talking about being a badass who does what she wants because she feels empowered, I’m talking about just being a bad feminist. From the second I jumped on the feminist train, I genuinely had no idea what it meant. I was about 14 when I heard the world and I remember thinking “ok I have to do this because I am a girl”. I didn’t realize there was so much more to it than just receiving a title.

As I got older I figured out the dictionary definition of the word but also that there was so much more to the word that makes it unclear. This also meant that a lot of the actions I was making didn’t match the title I was giving myself. I mean I still used words like bitch and slut and let me tell you those are not feminist friendly words. I also lived in constant annoyance with females partially because I live with so many and partially because I couldn’t stand many of the ones I went to school with.

As I grew up, I worked on those things and I would like to think of myself as a better feminist than before but I would still say I struggle with it. It’s things like letting a guy pay the bill for dinner or having him hold the door open for me even when I am clearly capable to hold it open myself that make me feel like I am a bad feminist. Believe me when I say I am working hard to try and figure out what it truly means to be a feminist and what I can do to be a better one. I think until then I’ll have to continue just being a bad feminist but hey I would rather be a bad feminist and make the effort then to do nothing at all.